I really want to sing Britney Spears' song "I'm not a girl, not yet a woman!!" Two points to anyone who also knows that song. Anyways, I had one of those moments two days ago where I was reminded that I'm in a different stage of life now. Since graduating from college it's been such a whirlwind of emotions and expectations that I haven't really stopped and thought about changing phases. The fact is that I'm in a completely new stage of life that I have never experienced before.
Enjoying some froyo ^ and macaroons. The raspberry was my favorite.
When I graduated from high school I knew the next step, for me, was college. However, once graduating from college that road map is empty. My core beliefs are still there, but the actual easy "ok, this is now what I'm suppose to do" is gone. I haven't been reminded of that in such as obvious way, until I went back to campus. Two days ago I needed to visit my college campus and was instantly reminded of how "old" I was.
It was in no way a bad thing, it was just that I no longer fit there. I overheard the college woes of having to write papers and social drama. I'm already missing the days of "I don't want to go to class today, so I wont."
The beautiful bouquet ^ currently on my dining room table. They make me happy
Now, there are times when I also don't "fit" with those who have graduated that seem to have life fully figured out. I'm not on the "six months till we're married" track, but I'm also not on the "I have not idea what's going on in the universe" track. I know more answers now than I did in college, yet I'm still so far from knowing all the answers. It's terrifying and exciting. There are so many opportunities that are available to me right now, and yet those same opportunities are the ones that scare me.
If you're out there like me, or you're about to graduate from college, have no fear. You are in no way alone. We can figure things out, we just don't have to know all the facts right now. For now, I'm just trying to keep my priorities in line and trust that my future is in good hands. Other than that I'm just focusing on growing up but not growing boring. I love the small aspects of life! I just have to remember to pause and see them.