I define myself. That's sometimes a good thing and sometimes a bad thing. I enjoy a multitude of different things about life and some of them I'm more knowledgeable in than others and that's ok. I don't have to be just a nerd, or t.v. watcher, dancer, Christian, or crafter I can, and am a mixture of those and that's fine. Just because I haven't read all of the iron man comics doesn't mean I can't be a nerd. I enjoy a bunch of nerdy things and I can call myself a nerd if I want to, who really has the authority to tell me otherwise?
I still want to do so many things before graduation. I want to read books, and watch movies, and relax with my friends, and try drawing I don't know I want to do a multitude of things.
I want it to get cold! It was just Thanksgiving and thank God it was cool, but now I really don't want it to get warm again. I'm in Florida so it very rarely ever gets actually cold but I would love it to stay 60 degrees or below in my dream Christmas, come on Florida.
Probably the largest realization that I have had is that somewhere in middle school or high school I gathered this idea in my mind that when people graduated from college they knew exactly where, when, who, why, how, and all other possible questions that had to do with their careers and life in general. I don't know if someone told me this "fact" or if I somehow came up with it myself but let me tell you not everyone knows the answers to these questions. Now, if you know the answers to these that is truly amazing and I'm truly happy you have parts of life figured out. However, in my experience, I haven't had the most clear of experiences. I know a multitude more about myself and my goals from going through college and all the experiences that come along with it, but there are so many aspects I don't have figured out.
Not that I need to have everything figured out, but I'm such an internal thinker that my mind just goes and all of a sudden I'm thinking about taxes and living locations and dentists. Ya, sometimes I just need to chill and watch some tv or lay on my floor, yup I do that. Over the past few weeks I've been letting myself get so stressed that all I've been doing is studying and be nervous for graduation, because you know that's super healthy.
Perspective during these times is so important because no matter what stage of life you may be in, when you graduate college you don't have to have everything figured out. I know who I am and what I believe and if I truly believe what I say I believe why should I be so worried. Haha I hope that made sense. This post has been one that I've been debating to post or not. The reason I am is because If I'm stressing over this I would assume that people before me have stressed over this and people who will graduate after me will be stressing too. Find some comfort in knowing that you're not alone, and you don't have to have life fully figured out, and also it's important to take breaks and naps!